Dear Friend,
I feel like there’s something missing with ‘us.’ Is this how love is supposed to be?
-Renee
Dear friend,
I want to get married. As soon as possible. And I don’t care if it’s to the wrong person. I just want to have someone with me at all times. Someone that will be for me and only for me. No one else.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I feel like I’m dating both of the twins. Sometimes, I even feel as if I’m dating the wrong one.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I loved you first.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I told him that I love him. And he told me he couldn’t say it back. I feel so stupid.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I take that back. There is only one person that has my heart.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I think I’m in love with two people.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I don’t think there are any words to explain how I feel right now. I wish there were. So I could get it off my mind. But there aren’t.
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. And I know that’s not good. Thinking ahead isn’t something that I like to do. Because then I expect things. And when you expect things, you get disappointed. The thing is, I just want him to be with me. I want to wake up in the morning knowing he’ll be there. Is that so much to ask?
Love — Jane
Dear friend,
I have decided to stop smoking cigarettes and weed. And I have also decided to stop drinking. I think it’s better to be clean for a while. Ever since I started dating my boyfriend, I’ve been picking up these bad habits. For example, when I’m stressed, I smoke. Or when I’m sad, I drink. As a result, I get super quiet or break down. And I’m tired of doing that. I’m tired of holding everything in. It’s not fair to me or anyone else that I let everything out when I’m high or drunk. Plus, it’s not very attractive. I don’t think it’s cute when I girl smokes cigarettes. It smells. And when I kiss my boyfriend, I feel like I’m kissing an ashtray. I want him to quit. I don’t know why I started. I just figured that if I smoked, I wouldn’t taste it when I kissed him. And it’s true. I don’t taste it after I smoke. But I hate it when I come home and smell my nasty clothes. It’s not cute. At all. As for drinking. I just say too damn much when I’m drunk. And I think it’s better to keep that shit to myself. And when I’m ready to talk about it, I’ll write to you. But yeah. These are just a couple of things that I want to work on. Cause I feel as if I don’t really know who I am anymore. I mean, I used to be sober. But now, it’s just out of control. I need to get my life back on track. On a lighter note… my boyfriend visited me for the first time in my hometown. It was a great feeling to see him come into my house and sit on my couch. And I got to cook for him and wash his dishes and watch a movie with him in my own family room. It felt great. And he met my friends. And we went bowling. And we laughed. And it was just a great day. I’m so happy. He makes my heart melt. I couldn’t ask for anyone better. Even if he smokes and drinks, he’s good to me. And that’s all I could really ask for from him.
Love — Jane